#SheSharesTruth: Jonah 3&4

For background information on why I am writing this post click here and read the first part.

This week we are digging into the second half of the Book of Jonah, read chapter 3 and 4 here.

Chapter three is the repentance and redemption story of the Ninevites. Jonah warns them of the wrath of God that is coming and their response is wildly unexpected and truly amazing; “And the people of Nineveh believed God. They called for a fast and put on sackcloth, from the greatest of them to the least of them.” (Jonah 3:5) Just like that. They don’t hesitate, they don’t make excuses, they believe in God and they turn away from their evil ways. Just like that. Hallelujah!

The repentance of a whole city is great, but we don’t see Jonah rejoicing, quite the opposite actually, he is angry. Although we may not exactly get angry with God for saving ‘the wicked’, I think we do a whole lot of judging who could or couldn’t, should or shouldn’t be saved. We look at our neighbor or coworker or family member and think, “Surely not him or her”. We (like Jonah) run in the opposite direction when God asks us to share the Gospel with someone we don’t think deserves it. Jonah didn’t just run because Nineveh was a terrifying place, no he ran because he didn’t want God to save them. “That is why I made haste to flee to Tarshish; for I knew that you are a gracious God and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, and relenting from disaster.” (Jonah 4:2)

Guess what? None of us deserve grace. You don’t either. Did you know that’s what grace means? Undeserved favor. We don’t get to decide that someone is too sinful or too far away from God. We just get to share God’s word and leave the rest up to Him.

Jonah is a man of extremes, he goes from being exceedingly displeased and angry when God spares Nineveh to being exceedingly glad when God provides a plant for shade (which he also takes away from him again). And when God asks the (rhetorical) question “Do you do well to be angry for the plant?” (Jonah 4:9) Jonah’s answer? “Yes, I do well to be angry, angry enough to die.” Emotional much? Angry enough to die? Really, Jonah, really? Sounds a little dramatic.

And still, I think I can be put in the category of ‘short fused’, it doesn’t take a lot to make me frustrated but it does take me a while to calm back down. I get frustrated when things don’t go the way I expect. I get frustrated with my circumstances, with God, with myself, with my husband or my daughter. I can get pretty pouty, because obviously it will never get better. Ever. *insert sarcasm*

It’s so easy to read about Jonah and see how obvious the answer to God’s question is. But somehow not so much in our own life. So when I was reading this sentence today: “Do you do well to be angry?” God showed up, and he called me out. Because of course the answer is a loud resounding NO, not in the least. Jonah wants to be angry, he feels like he has every right to. And I realized, that that’s exactly how I feel. I want to be angry, I keep a tight grip on ‘my right’ to be angry with whatever situation I am in. But the truth is I have no right to be angry. The only right I have is to be thankful. thankful that I have been saved, not because I deserved to be saved but because I serve a merciful God.

“For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9)

 

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#SheSharesTruth: Jonah 1&2

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We all know the story of Jonah: God asks Jonah to preach repentance to a city of ungodly people, Jonah is terrified so he takes off in the opposite direction, and God punishes him by letting him spend 3 days inside a whale to teach him a lesson on disobeying God, right? Now hold on, let’s read the first two chapters of Jonah and see if that’s actually what happens.

I know it’s a little bit of a read, two whole chapters, but if we want to understand what’s going on, we really need to get into the text. You can read it by clicking here.

These first two chapters aren’t so much a story of God punishing Jonah for being disobedient as it is a story of God using all kinds of different people and different situations to fulfill His will. Do you think it was a coincidence that there was a ship departing in the exact opposite direction of Nineveh? Do you think it was chance that when the mariners cast lots to find out who was to blame for the storm, they fell on Jonah? Was it just pure luck that instead of drowning in the sea Jonah was swallowed up by a fish and survived for three days and three nights and then the fish “vomited Jonah out upon the dry land”?

Not coincidence, not chance, not pure luck – but providence. God’s sovereign hand moving on people, speaking to the sea and even to a fish, to work out His will. God isn’t surprised or taken off guard when Jonah runs away, I am pretty sure it was part of the plan. Maybe so Jonah would trust God to take care of Him, maybe so we could learn from his example (or rather not learn from his example)? I don’t know, but we are talking about God here, there certainly is a big picture purpose for every little thing in Jonah’s story. 

“I called out to the Lord, out of my distress, and he answered me; out of the belly of Sheol I cried, and you heard my voice…you brought up my life from the pit, O Lord my God. When my life was fainting away, I remembered the Lord, and my prayer came to you, into your holy temple.” – Jonah 2:2,6-7 ESV (with my edits)

While still inside the belly of the fish (maybe a whale, we don’t know) Jonah is giving thanks to God for his grace towards him. For saving his life, not from the fish but by the fish. How often do you give thanks when you are in the thick of it? I know that I am not very good at seeing how God is showing grace and providing for me in the midst of trials. I have a tendency of complaining and pining about how hard it is, and yearning for “the other side”, without even considering that maybe where I am at right now is right where I need to be, that maybe God is providing for me by letting me go through trials not just once He gets me safe on the other side, or “on dry land” so to speak.

“But we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.” – Romans 5:3-5 ESV

There is learning and growing happening in the trials and in the hardships if only we are willing to learn, willing to be stretched so that we can grow. Maybe it’s supposed to be messy, so that it can be made beautiful.

What is God calling you to that you are tempted to run away from? Where is He challenging you and giving you a chance to trust in Him, and you are refusing to? Pray, talk to your Creator, ask Him to give you courage, strength and boldness, to do what He is asking you to do for Him.

Oh, and Jonah does end up going to Nineveh, but that’s another post at another time.

#SheSharesTruth: Psalm 38

As an introduction to this post, I have to share with you a little bit more about SheReadsTruth and what it’s all about. I think that for me this might be the easiest way to explain it: A group of women make the Bible reading plans that a bunch of women, including myself, then read and as we dig into God’s word we are challenged, encouraged and convicted – God is speaking into our lives. (For a more lengthy explanation read this post)

Then we join in the conversation in the comments, to share what we are learning, to ask for prayer, to give words of encouragement etc. In this current reading plan for Lent leading up to Easter, the writers have challenged us, the readers, to study a psalm and write about our reflections and share it on our blog, Instagram, Facebook etc. Last week over 200 women shared their reflections, and this week I am joining them.

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Start by reading Psalm 38.

I read the psalm in my ESV Bible. Then I read it in my Danish bible. Then I read it in the Message Bible, and then the ESV again. There is no way of getting around it, this Psalm is written by an utterly depressed David. And it is actually quite depressing. At first I had no idea what to write in this post, which is why I tried reading so many different translations, I was hoping that somehow with different wording, maybe it wouldn’t be as heavy. But it was, and all of a sudden I realized why. Because sin is heavy. And we are crushed under the weight of it if we carry it alone.

I started looking for help with deciphering this depressing Psalm and ended up finding a Spurgeon commentary called “The Treasury of David” that changed my perspective of the Psalm.

“For your arrows have sunk into me, and your hand has come down on me.” Psalm 38:2

“It seems strange that the Lord should shoot at his own beloved ones, but in truth he shoots at their sins rather than them, and those who feel his sin killing shafts in this life, shall not be slain with his hot thunderbolts in the next world.” C. H. Spurgeon, The Treasury of David

Of course David feels depressed and weighed down, sin does just that.

But, we don’t have to carry the burden alone. Jesus says in Matthew 11:28-30: “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

Let’s fast forward to verse 15:

“But for you, O Lord, do I wait; it is you, O Lord my God, who will answer.” Psalm 38:15

God will answer. God will answer. There is confidence here, David isn’t saying I’ll wait and see if God answers. He is absolutely confident that he will. That he is going to, so David will wait. He will sit through the suffering and wait for the Lord to answer because he knows beyond the shadow of all doubt that God is going to answer.

I pray that same confidence for myself. That I would know beyond the shadow of all doubt that God will answer my prayers. He will hear my cries for help. He will not forsake me, He will not leave me to fend for myself. He will come to me, as I wait for Him.

Acts of Love

Note: This was originally posted on an old blog of mine over 2 years ago. Today I rediscovered it and felt like reposting it to my current blog. I hope you enjoy. (I took the liberty of doing some editing, mostly for grammatical reasons.)

Love is a choice. I have stated this in a previous blog post, and I still believe it to be true. We decide whether or not we are going to share our love with the people we are surrounded by. Whether that be our friends, co-workers, family, boyfriend/girlfriend or spouse. We can choose to be selfish or we can choose to die to ourselves in order to serve the people we love. That is our choice.

I have been reading a wonderful book called, ‘the Meaning of Marriage’ by Timothy Keller (it is also written by his wife, Kathy, in part) In this book he talks about acts of love, how we can love our partner, even when we don’t feel the love. Then by acting love towards them, our feelings are fueled, and we are somehow able to ‘feel’ the love again. When the feelings are lacking, we rely on our willful choice to still love the other person.

This also translates to our lives with God. We won’t always ‘feel’ God. We won’t always ‘feel’ like reading the Bible, but we do it as an act of love.

Because we love God, not so that he will love us, but because he already has loved us. Even before we loved him.

So we choose, consciously, willfully and with determination to show Him love, even when we don’t feel it. We do this by praying, not because we have to but because we want to talk to our Creator and show him our love. We do it by spending time in the word, not because we have to, but because we want to get to know Him more. We choose to seek him, not just when we feel like it, but even more so when we don’t feel like it, we decide to act out the love that we have for him.

And then in time, the Acts of Love will (most likely) bring back those warm feelings of nearness, love, and acceptance. All the things we ‘feel’ in his presence. Feelings are a fleeting thing, we can’t trust them. They will ebb and flow, just like feelings do. But we commit to walking hand in hand with God. Good and bad. And that it is where the most satisfying interactions are born. In relationship with God, and in relationship with each other.

The ultimate human example is most wondrously displayed in marriage. We let one other person into the inner courts and let them see all the dirty stuff. We decide to love them when we feel the warm and fuzzy stuff, when they do something sweet and we can see only how good they are.

But more importantly we decide to love them when they aren’t perfect. When they fail and need to have forgiveness extended to them. This is where the closest human thing to magic happens. Two people entering a covenant, not because they expect it to me easy all the time, but because they have decided that even when it’s not easy, they are still going to stick around and fight it out. A covenant relationship. Bound to succeed. An impossibility. Yet the truest reality.

Dig in: She Reads Truth

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Note: Our family was, up until just a few weeks ago, part of a small church plant called Anker Kirke, but through much prayer and outside wisdom and counsel, we made the difficult decision to stop planting for now and integrate with a local church Københavner Kirken in Copenhagen. Read more about the reasons here. I wrote this for our website over a year ago while we were still living in Malmö, Sweden, and I had just found out about an online community for women who want to be in God’s word. I have since then followed several “She Reads Truth” plans on the site, and sometimes even completed a few.

We have all tried it, and probably failed.

We set big goals for ourselves and try to live up to them. And when we don’t, we excuse it with busy lives or unrealistic goals. In January 2012 I started the one-year-Bible reading plan via my YouVersion Bible app. At first, I was excited to read my Bible daily and didn’t miss a day. After a while though, I started to forget and miss days, so I had to use the “catch me up” function, which brings the last finished day to the current day. Today, over a year later, I am currently on day 57 of the 365 day plan. That’s right, that’s how many times I have missed my reading and used the “catch me up” function.

What that means is that the reading plan has been working more as a weekly plan than a daily plan — on average at least. I haven’t read the one-year-Bible reading plan once for the last couple of months, and I realized that reading multiple chapters per day seems like a grueling task — like something I had to get through instead of something I looked forward to. So I started to look for a new Bible reading plan, hoping to find something that would seem more doable, practical, and appealing to me. And in the YouVersion Bible app, I came across the “She Reads Truth” reading plans, which sounded really interesting.

The “She Reads Truth” plans aren’t long or overwhelming — only 10 or 15 minutes every day. Now, spending daily time in the Bible is something I look forward to. Every reading has a short devotional, some with questions that have I used to examine my life, with notebook in hand. Jesus is speaking to me through it. I’m relating to the text, I’m learning and growing, and most importantly I’m in my Bible and enjoying it. Now, I can proudly say that I have completed my first reading plan through the YouVersion App. Granted, it was only 11 days long and it was Paul’s letter to Philippi (Philippians). Not too long, not too complicated, But very rich in content and something I could manage.

So if you are like me, and reading the whole Bible in a year seems like a daunting task, maybe you need to take it slow. Do smaller portions, a little bit each dayFind a reading plan that works for you. Most important of all; stay in the Word. Stay close to Jesus. And keep growing in to the wonderful identity you have received in Christ, knowing that his power is made perfect in your weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). Jesus keeps pursuing you, even if all you ever bring is mess. He takes you by the hand and leads you by still waters (Psalm 23:2). Why? Because he loves you. He loves you so much that he died for you.

But he didn’t just die for you, he died in your place.

He took all your shortcomings, failures, and sin on himself, so that you could be with God — the King of the universe. Don’t you want to know him? He wants to know you, and he is calling you. So get out your Bible, or your smartphone app and dig in to God’s Word, the Bible. This is where he has revealed himself; and I promise, you will not be disappointed. I recommend starting with something like “She Reads Truth” on the YouVersion iPhone app or website app. They have reading plans for Philippians, Colossians, Galatians, Ephesians, and more, they take between 10-15 days to complete, and they all have daily devotions.

Dig in, start getting to know Him, or get to know Him better.

He’s waiting on you.

Day 24: 509(?) days of joy

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At the beginning of the year I started this project ‘365 days of joy’ and I thought I would be able to post a little something every day. And then I didn’t because I was too busy doing other things like wiping vomit off the floor, changing the bedding, changing Magnolia’s outfit again, feeding her, putting her down for a nap. The list goes on. All that to say, life as a mother is busy!

It doesn’t mean that there aren’t moments of joy every day, there are plenty, I just don’t always have time to blog about them. Does this mean I am quitting the project? Absolutely not! I am just going to let it take the time it takes, maybe I will get to day 365 in 509 days, maybe it will be more, but I will get there.

Today’s photo is actually from yesterday. Magnolia fell asleep when we drove to church, we tried to keep her awake as the transfer from car to stroller rarely goes well, but she was so out of it, that it wasn’t a problem. Forget the sleepless nights, forget the sickness, forget the sore back from yet another night of holding her in my arms – that beauty right there is a miracle. And she is my miracle, absolutely stunning. I mean look at that face, how can you do anything but love her?

Day 22: Saturdays

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Saturday is our family day, we try not to make too many plans and just take the day to enjoy each other’s company. This morning Michael made a pancake breakfast and afterwards he took me on a date to Starbucks, while my Mom took care of Magnolia. He brought Mr. Michael’s Magic Backpack of Surprises and I was excited to find out what that meant.

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Before we left Michael and Magnolia cleaned up after breakfast. Once we had gotten Magnolia to sleep and dropped her off at my parents’ house,  we were in the car on our way and Michael revealed the first surprise: the camera, so we could take pictures all day. We like to do that.

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At Starbucks Michael got a Venti Winter Blend brewed coffee and I had a Grande Skinny White Chocolate Mocha – mine was delicious, Michaels was a little too bitter, at least for me. We sat down and talked like grown-ups without trying to figure out naps or meals. And talked about the future and what we hope for and dream about, in the years to come.

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And we laughed at my silly milkstach.

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We were still at Starbucks when Michael pulled out surprise #2 from Mr. Michaels Magic Backpack of Surprises: two books. The one I am currently reading and one of the many that Michael is currently reading. He set a timer for 30 mins and we just sat and read, uninterrupted by anything but our own desire to share quotes from what we were reading. Pure bliss!

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After that it was time for surprise #3: A Letter. I have at least a dozen handwritten letters from Michael that he has written over the years, and then there are all the blogs and emails. Words are important, and words from the one you love has a special weight to them. Always full of love, dreams and hope for what will one day be.

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We went to our favorite baby clothing store ‘Next’ and spent a gift card Magnolia got at her Baby Dedication last week, and took a selfie.

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After picking Magnolia back up we went through my parents’ backyard to cross over the cemetery and head home. Somehow this apple survived the fall and early winter, only to be eaten off the branch by birds.

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I also had to get a shot of ‘the little house’, because I think in spite of what it is it has a lot of charm. And it blends so well with the other colors.

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It really is.

Day 16: Celebration

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Today was the day of Magnolia’s baby dedication. We had the privilege of committing to loving her, sacrificing for her and teaching her about Jesus. It was a great service where Kevin Morgan preached a beautiful sermon on Jesus as the way, the truth and the life, and what that means.

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Bodil and Kevin asked us a series of questions in both English and Danish to reflect our bilingual family and community culture.

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We as parents were excited to commit in front of friends and family to raising our daughter in the way of the gospel, treasuring God’s word above all else and keeping Jesus at the centre.

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This is our friend Sara and her sweet daughter Johanne.

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Sara is married to Jesper which is why he is also holding Johanne.

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Gustav, their 4 year old son, asked me to read a book to him, although he already knew the story and told it way ahead of me. I am a godparent to both Gustav and Johanne.

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On the left is my sister Sille and her son Theodor (believe it or not I am actually his godmother too). On the right is my good friend Anni and her son Kasper. So glad to have them all there today. Although we missed their husbands Martin and John.

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My cousin Sune also made it out with his parents, my Dad’s sister Marianne and her husband Søren (not pictured). He loves his little second cousins and always asks to hold them and play with them.

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My sister Ida, her boyfriend Bo and my cousin Kit were there to celebrate with us. Ida actually prepared a large amount of the food for the day and we are so thankful for her.

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My cousin Kit also brought her fiancée Michael. A fun fact about my family is that on my mother’s side I only have girl cousins and it so happens that we are 5 girls who ended up with the following men; Michael, Michael, Martin, Martin and Bo. I’ll let you decide who is the odd one out.

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We are so grateful for all the presents Magnolia got. For instance this beautiful (and fun) drawing made by one of my favorite people, Julie.

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I think Magnolia enjoyed the wrapping more than the presents themselves. But I am sure she will enjoy the pajamas she got when they keep her warm on a cold night. Or the warm clothes on a chilled-to-the-bone kind of winters day.

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She also quite obviously enjoyed getting some quality time with Anni.

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And last but not least, she enjoyed every second she got to spend on Mormor’s shoulders pulling her hair. My Mom really gets to take credit for making everything work out today with food and such, she is a powerful planner, an excellent executer and delightful delegator.

Day 15: Songs of Love

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When Michael and I first started dating, he sang me to sleep over Skype every night (If you look closely at the top of the picture you can see it says 2011-11-17, which was 10 days after we started dating). I would literally fall asleep while he was playing his guitar and singing all our favorite songs from Brooke Fraser and Tina Dico or even something he made up on the spot. Sometimes the songs made up on the spot were very touching, other times though they were very silly, like the following line “She works at the craft store, with all the stupid costumers asking for more of her than she gets paid to do”.

Since becoming parents to our beautiful little girl and being in the thick of it, there hasn’t been as much music in our house. Neither the kind that you just listen to or the kind that you make yourself. But last night Michael wrote a new song for me. I was in the kitchen making some hot chocolate for us, and Magnolia was asleep in her room, so Michael seized the moment, grabbed his guitar and started writing.

By the time I came back in the living room, Michael just looked at me and said “I wrote you a song”. He prefaced it by saying how it was all birthed out of  the realization that he doesn’t deserve me. Every day together is a gift and every breath grace. It is all grace. When we wake up together, when we go to sleep together, when we laugh together. Grace. He played the song for me, and it was beautiful.

One of the lines in the chorus of the song goes like this “How can I ever give you more than you’ve given me? How can I love you in the way I have been loved, so strong so unconditionally?”. After he played the song for me, I looked at him with tears in my eyes, and told him that he had it all wrong. He was clearly confused, so I had to clarify: “It’s the other way around, you have given me so much and I could never give you back what I have been given.”

We always said that we wanted a loud house in a quiet place. Whether that be loud with music or with laughter, we want a house that is full of love. Bursting at the seams, and hardly able to contain the joy, love and laughter. Songs bring me joy. Especially when they come from the bottom of the heart of my beloved.

Day 9, 10, 11 & 12: Catching up

We went to Sheffield for a conference these last few days. I really enjoyed the scenery and getting to do some photography. As a means of catching up on the past four days I have decided to share four of my favorite shots.

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Almost all the houses we saw were attached liked this. Love all the different colors.

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Colorful (or should I say colourful?) graffiti in a back alley.

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Michael and I took pictures of each other. That’s right, we are pretty silly. This man brings me so much joy.

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But this one is perhaps my most favorite of all, the “up-hill-down-hill-all-at-once” aspect is so intriguing and very specific for the city built on 7 hills.